Negative is positive, when we're talking scans. While I'm not completely free of cancer, the small growths in my insides are steadily shrinking. Awesome!!! We're at a point now where I'll get scanned every three months and visit the doctor on a monthly basis – after a recent flurried mess of appointments, it's a great relief to feel the stacked regularity of multi-visit days slowly dissipating. I can see a long term future of no more than scattered visits – it's been a rare thing to look ahead these last few years. It feels a bit odd to find joy in simply looking at a calendar and making plans for february, may, december. But then, this journey has been a powerful lesson in finding joy where- and whenever possible.
I think about those early days when even imagining the next week was a challenge – part of the decision to enter into civil matrimony was our lack of clarity when considering even the near future. Can you believe we actually planned and pulled off a destination wedding? And that it was super amazingly awesome and perfect?
Yeah, I can totally believe it.