in twenty four hours or so, i’ll wake up from my surgery. i can’t say i’m looking forward to it. still, it’s a great luxury to have the chance to properly prepare. so many of my recent hospitalizations have come out of nowhere – i spike a high fever and spend five days in the hospital fighting off an infection, or i arrive to the ER with (this actually happened) dual infections of both viral and bacterial nature AND pneumonia. yeah, that was not very fun – although my infectious nature granted me a private room. talk about luxury!
this time is different. i’ve known this surgery was a possibility for years. i have time to make sure all my bills are paid, that nothing will fall through the cracks while i’m out of commission. i’ve been hard at work setting up a custom care calendar, so those who’d like to visit or be involved in post-surgical support can use an online scheduler. i’ve got cookbooks for blended food and people are already sending recipes. people are sending me immersion blenders! (mystery solved: thanks, jess schoen!) also, i have an ipad. all is well.
i’m on way to one last afternoon of bridge before they cut me up, but i’ll get all the information about the support calendar posted tonight. thanks so much for all of your kind words and messages of encouragement. i’ve met a number of young adult cancer survivors who are not only far away from any family but also lack local extended networks of friends. i can’t imagine having to manage the pain and complications and insufferable side effects and financial toxicity without all of you. you are seriously awesome. you are a luxury.